Ever have one of those moments when you just want to burst into tears, but you cant? That moment where you know you could probably feel better if you could just cry. Not the cute, girly, one glistening tear on your cheek, kind of crying. Oh no, that will not do. You need the hard core, ugly, snot and mascara every where kind of crying. When all you want to do is just let all the frustration and pain just flow out of you with those tears, but not one tear will fall...
I had one of those moments today. The worst part of that is that I don't know whether to be happy or pissed about that... I mean, maybe I couldn't cry because I'm a strong woman and I know deep down in my heart that it is all going to be okay someday. But it kinda feels like I just can not seem to let go and release my feelings and just feel better. I feel like I keep everything so bottled up, so tightly wound, that one of these days I'm gonna hit my breaking point. And trust me, it wont be pretty. 21 years of pent up aggression just released on the world could never lead to good things.
This entry is short and sweet, I know, I just needed a mild vent session. Tomorrow is another day. Lets all hope a better one...
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"I feel like I'm facing everything by myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile..."
Again - I feel ya, girl. When I can't release my aggression but I need to release the dam of tears, I turn to Grey's Anatomy. One or two episodes in particular always do it for me.
ReplyDeleteIf you're familiar with the show, I'll send them along to you, if you'd like. Instant Netflix can be your friend. ;)
But at least get the tears out when you're alone. It helps, I promise. Even strong women cry...
-Jennifer.