More than a bird, more than a plane...

So here's the first entry of 2012...

Id like to say that I'm sure this is going to be an amazing year. But after the way things have been going I'm quite skeptical. I suppose all there is to do is wait and see.

Anyway, I'm so happy that the holidays are over!! Work was nuts. Trying to balance family and friends and being everywhere at once drove me insane. Most of all I have a whole new understanding of why people say the holidays are so hard. It really is the perfect time of year to remind you of all the things wrong or missing in your life. Unfortunately, I was weak this year and I let myself wallow in the misery, more than I'd like to admit. But everyone has weak moments right? So I'm not gonna be too hard on myself. 

I really want to make this year better. Things in my life got a little out of control recently, but I think I'm ready to let it go and move forward and be a better person. So here is my list of resolutions:

1) Get in shape!

     -I know this is a very generic resolution, but hey if it works, it works. I'm done being self conscious about myself. I know I'm a beautiful person, and I really want my outsides to reflect that. Now, the major difference between a normal weight loss resolution and mine is, I'm not totally concerned with my weight. I honestly care less what that number is. What I want is to start eating better, working out, being more active. I just want to feel healthier. I'm done feeling drained and exhausted. So Its not a weight loss goal as much as a goal to feel better about myself.

2) No more procrastinating!

    -Need I say more??

3) Prioritize...

    - I think this is the most important of all my resolutions. I need to become better at putting whats important first. I need to start spending my money more wisely, I need to be there for the people in my life, I need to make sure I'm keeping all my promises and holding up all my bargains. I have been feeling like the scum of the earth lately and I don't know why. I know I'm a good person, but the pressure gets to me so bad. And this brings me to why I think this is the most important resolution. I need to accept that I'm not perfect. I need to stop caring so much about what people think and what they want me to do and just do what is best for me and the people I love. I need to make my own happiness. 

So there it is, 2012 in a nut shell... MAKE MY OWN HAPPINESS! That is the theme of my year. I'm going to start going out and getting what I want. I'm going to make my life so much more than what Ive been settling for. I'm going to prove to everyone that I'm worth so much more than I get credit for. 

"I can't stand to fly

I'm not that naive

I'm just out to find

The better part of me

I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane

I'm more than some pretty face beside a train"

♥