Its been a very long time sense I've written anything. But for some reason I'm feeling like tonight is the night for me to start again.
Today has been a very insightful day. I met my honorary nephew for the first time and he woke up, and looked right at me with his beautiful blue eyes. Even though he is not even family, I felt something move within me. He was so beautiful, so perfect. It reminded me that life can be difficult and it can hit us hard some times, but underneath it all is the possibility that something beautiful can happen.
Yet in this same day, I was also reminded that the scum of the earth can come right up from behind you and grab you before you even know what happened. It all just reminded me that I have to be the person I know I am deep down inside. I have to be strong and independent, and capable of doing anything. Life will through you curve balls but you have to roll with the punches. Life is life. And no matter how hard you try, things will never be what you want them to be. You have to be prepared for the worst yet hope for the best. Know that the night is dark, but there is always a sunrise, and a new day to follow. Filled with new chances and new opportunities.
The fact is, that life is life. It sucks sometimes, and its hard. So hard. But sometimes it is beautiful and memorizing and spectacular. It will surprise you with the good as often as it surprises you with the bad. There is good with bad. Happy with sad. And some times you will cry as much as you smile. But the point is that you keep on living no matter what happens to you. Believe that in the end it will all be okay. If its not then its not really the end. You realize not to put so much faith in broken people, because you may simply end up cutting yourself on their broken pieces. Instead, focus on your life, what makes you smile and laugh and be happy and get rid of the people and things that don't. Be you because that's really all we know how to do. It will all turn out fine. Just have faith, keep on trying and never ever give up. Be the person you know you were born to be, no matter what anyone else does or says. Your amazing!
