Keep your eyes open...

I'm sick and tired...

I'm sick and tired of people treating other people like scum on the bottom of their shoes. I'm sick of people thinking that its OK to look at other as disposable. I'm sick of sick guys who only want to get girls into bed and never want to commit. I'm sick of girls selling themselves short because they think that's all their worth. I'm sick of the people closest to me betraying my trust and love for a few fleeting moments of joy. Is it worth it? Are all of these stupid games worth the loss of these relationship? 

I watch all the people around me, always being content with the fact that this time and place we are all only as valuable as the things we can offer. I know I'm just as screwed up as the next person, but at least I value people, and their feelings, and the fact that they are humans and have feeling and hurt and cry and laugh and feel joy just like and you. 

I'm sick and tired of seeing the people I care about hurt by the people they "love" and that are supposed to "love" them. I'm sick of putting my feelings on the line and having them pushed aside like a used tissue. This is not what life is supposed to be. We should love each other. We should all feel compassion for each other. We should recognize that we are all the same, and at the end of the day all we all want is to feel like our time here is worth something to someone. 

Where did we go so wrong? When did life become a fucked up chain of one night stands and heart breaks? When did having all these walls up to keep everyone out become the norm? We all have to keep our feet ready, waiting for the second we know is coming, that we have to run. We keep our eyes open, even when we're sleeping because there is the assumption that everyone could turn on us at the drop of a hat. Trust is gone, commitment is gone, love is gone. We are all afraid. We're all cowards. 

Is this the world I want to live in? The world I want to bring my children into? No way! Is there anyone out there who isn't afraid to just be who they are. To not worry about what everyone thinks, and follow their hearts? And if so, where are those people. All you hear about is hate and crime and sorrow. Cant we all just get back to the fundamentals? Where is the love...

"So here you are, two steps ahead and staying on guard

                                Every lesson forms a new scar
                         They never thought you'd make it this far
                        But turn around, oh they've surrounded you
                   It's a showdown and nobody comes to save you now"

                                            -Taylor Swift